Wednesday, July 13, 2011

The maddness

Just can not consentrate on anything. Stopped the gabapentin to stop the edema, to help speed up my metabolism.. but now can not hardly move. Have found myself sitting and staring as if paralyzed , a few times today.. yesterday.. Can not get out of my head. No one to talk to. Isolated.

So, this is what has happened so much of my life and i did not even know it was a 'thing'.. a type of 'maddness'... a 'chemicle imbalance'...

Not staying asleep... Panic hits in the strangest ways..

gotta go